So today is...

...a bit better than yesterday. After my post last evening, I decided to answer some questions in my review book. I answered 8 and got 2 right. I got so pissed off, I threw the book across the room. It's probably a good thing that the book is relatively small. So the book went flying and I was a little surprised at myself (I'm not exactly a throw a book across the room kind of person). I decided this was not a good thing and went to bed. Woke up this morning and I have to say I was in exquisite pain. I've been having pain in my lower back for over a week now, pain in my neck for a few days and a headache to top it all off. But I got up, went through my routine, although it did take me a lot longer to do the stuff that I have to do in the morning than usual.

So I had an hour of class and then a break before my OPP lab. I'm sitting in the cafeteria with a cup of coffee studying with some people and the security person walks in and says "We are evacuating the building for a bomb threat." Now if this was a real bomb threat and I can't guarantee that we weren't just having a drill, it's not funny. But at the same time, I kind of giggle thinking of some stressed out first year calling and putting in a bomb threat. Now this did not actually happen to my knowledge (I feel I should add this in case someone higher up than me in the med school food chain reads my blog accidentally) but you have to admit that with the stress we are all under, someone is bound to crack eventually. So anyone we walk out and then we walk back in, very short amount of time so I'm thinking it was a drill. But anyway, I go to lab and we are doing cervical manipulation techniques, in other words, we're basically massaging the neck and loosening up the muscles. I almost asked my OPP partner to marry me because it was so amazing. My neck feels better, my head feels better. All I need is someone to do my lower back and I will be so much better.

I'm still stressed out and there's times when I feel like I still know nothing but there are flashes of knowledge so we'll see how things go. And if I fail anatomy, I'm going to be upset, but hey...things happen for a reason. I don't know what this reason would be but there has to be one. But I just have a feeling that I'm going to pass. I don't know how I'm going to pull it off, but I just have a feeling in my gut and I have to say, my gut has been giving me pretty good insights lately.